I wish I didnt have to stare at my cell phone,
and wonder if you're just ignoring my messages.
I wish I didn't have to worry that you see me as second best.
I wish we could talk, and share it all with eachother.
I wish you wanted to spend every moment beside me.
I wish you weren't so stubborn.
I wish you wouldn't lie to me.
I wish you knew that I care so much.
I wish you meant all the things you said.
I wish you'd grow up, and learn how to show emotion.


I wish I didnt have to wish for things.

Lord God, help me to find perfect love, as you intended.

They will all just forget about us.
You had to leave in love.
I had to stay in love.
I needed to fall to feel
What its like to be picked up.

We knew it was forever.
But it couldnt be in our time.
You told me I would be your wife.
Oh just let me go.
Why'd you have to be so good?

Just let me go to bed
I have to get you out of my head.
When you kissed me, you must have known
I didn't want to be in love
But its your fault.
It always was. It always was.
It was mine.

Oh they could all forget about us.
Love me again and i sweear I'll make it count.
Nothing is ever perfect.
Oh just let you go.
Why'd you have to be so good?

You had to leave in love
I had to stay in love.
We didn't fit
And thats how perfect it was.

Ooh just let us go.
Why'd you have to be so good?
Why was it ever me?
Why'd you have to be you?



i miss you. you were my sweetest downfall.

life is really kicking me in the face these days.
and then extra knives are being thrown into my chest on top of that.

when sometime betrays you, denies you, keeps things from you when you know the truth, or hates on something you put your heart and soul into, it really hurts.
really, really hurts.

if only they would just listen.
open up their mind,
i'm trying show them my reasoning,
but they totally disreguard it.

and they dissapoint you, shock you, and keep it from you.
i know the truth. even if they deny it. i know the truth,
even thought they think i don't.
what happened to the real you. the true you.

i know what's deep down there,
i see it when i look into your eyes.
you're searching for something so much greater, and cant figure out where to look.
you see that glimmer of a jewel, but you're afraid to touch it and pick it up
for fear of seeing your reflection.

i love you.
no ones accusing you.
just breathe. come close to me , let our hearts beat as one.
we can get through this together.


God give me strength.

This storm keeps me awake
Lightning flashes in my eyes
The thunder yells of your presence.
You're trying to tell me something
Just make it clear so that i'll know.

Bring me to you
Carry me with you
I'm unsure and i need your grace
Inspire me with your power,
Calm me with your love

Tears fall down,
anger builds up
I know you want me to fix this
I need your mercy and your words
Shower me with your grace.

Bring me to you
Carry me with you
I'm unsure and i need your grace
Inspire me with your power,
Calm me with your love

I hear you calling out for me
I feel you pulling me in
Ways of the unknown
Your greatness overpowers me
Use me, Lord
I'm ready to do your will.

I know you want great things from this
It was never just a game
You've captured me once agan
There's a reason you brought me here tonight
I hand it all over to you
Lead me where you want me to go

Bring me to you
Carry me with you
I'm unsure and i need your grace
Inspire me with your power,
Calm me with your love

its amazing to be back home.
back home as in where i was born.
where i feel at home.
where i love to be.


i love these people.
theres such a special connection that i always miss.
that connection of growing up together.
knowing eachother's history
beacuse you were a part of it.
i miss that.

but i have it..
for a limited time.

some people just might not understand how this feels.
but its amazing

i love you guys.
i have no idea what i'd be doing without you.


its 3:31.
AM.

julia trulia fell asleep.
i'm not sleeping.
i'm listening to my iPod.
and writing this.
and my msn buddies just went to bed. lol.
i've barely slept at all while i've been here.

who cares.
i'll just sleep when i get back to dear ol' ancaster.

plans for tomorrow?
i think bowling
and i think having a cooking party.
and then renting movies =)

perhaps a street water fight.
that would be crazy awesome.


i need an alarm clock to get me up tomorrow.
i not letting us sleep the day away.
thats crap.

weee
i love being here.




alright.
maybe i will go to sleep.
just so i have some extra engery tomorrow.
not just the amazign energy i get off these people.




i still love you guys at "home" though.
dont fret.
i really do love you. i dont know what i'd do without you either.
=)

goodnight..
may you always feel at home, wherever you are.


kathleen

and you know I see right through you
'cause the world gets in your way



my heart is like aching.
weird.
it could be all of these sad and passionate songs i'm hearing
lol

or it could be a mixture of stress from exams.
(which is a lie, exams are a waste of energy.)

or. yeah.

but SUMMER IS ALMOST HERE.
just one more exam left,
and i'm officially done.

16 days until summer fun officially starts!(cottage with the fam)
21 days until ny best friend won't be a province away ( because she's here!=))
22 days until i begin a weekend spiritual journey in ohio
28 days until fly home,to winnipeg

some random amount of days until i hopefully do some studio recording.

aaaaaaaaah.
this is going to be the craziest fun ever!

i really really need to finish that song i'm writing..
the lyrics are all done.
i just gotta get the music together.

this is gonnoa be a good one.
i can feel it.

i'll post the lyrics later.


hmmm.

i'm hungry.

i think i'm gona eat some milk and cookies..

ooohh =)


-kathleendunn

say the words i need to hear..

you really confuse me.
and you really are making it harder this time.

please say something.
i dont know what to do about it now.


so uhh.
being sick isnt exactly the coolest thing ever.
especially when its not a regular kind of sick.
more like.
mentally ill..

i fainted a couple days ago.
not really sure why.
and i've been dizzy and weird ever since.
i actually have been having naps during the day.
and they're hardcore naps.
ones that you dont move, and dont get woken up easily at all.
and you sleep for 5 hours straight.

definatly dont usually do that.

i'm going to the doctor's tomorrow to see whats up.
and im' crazy and keep thinking the worst.
like i'm deathly ill with cancer or something.

i always scare myself.
the other night i actually wnet to bed thinking i was not going to wake up
and that was really scary..

so i just prayed till i fell asleep.

but (most obviously) i woke up..


i hate feeling like this.




you know what i miss about childhood?
is the feeling of having someone read to you.
someone read you anything.
just a simple, soft , and loving voice.
telling you stories of fantasies,romance, adventure, whatever.

when i picture it,
i think of you lying against them.
in a dimly, warmly lit room.
the only light is from the fireplace.
and they're softly reading you a story.
as you close your eyes,
and enjoy the comfort and safety of their arm around you
as they read to you.

wow. i'm such a romantic.


anyways.

dancing in the rain is pretty awesome too
but thats another story.

for now, i really should be studying for exams
and what not
coming up this week.

say a little prayer.

(L)

k.dunn.