have you ever experienced that?
you're feeling kinda happy.
but its kinda a fake happy?
at least i think it was anyway.
and then you like.. all of a sudden experience like..
ACTUAL happiness?
ya.
that happened to me tonight.
you people.
make me so happy.
i love it.
so much.
i wish i could spend wayy freaking more time with you guys.
then life would be . just.. aaahh.
=)
anyways.
i have to get back to dreary homework..
and then tomorrow get back to fake happiness.
kk peaceeee and looooove.
kathleen.
p.s.
say an extra prayer for moi. i need it =) <33
p.s.s. see you next monday =)

spirit of the living God, fall afresh on me

i love my friends.
you know who you are.
every single one of you make me what i am today.
and i'm so greatful for it.
i know this is pretty much random..
but thats me =P
so carrying on..
i love you guys.
dont know what brought this random post of a thought on,
twas prolly sparked by seeing alot of you at that choir kick off last night.
totally boosted my happiness from a 3 to a 9.
just need to have my winnipeg people again.
but i cant have everything.
so this is great enough for now.
but yes.
i love you guys.
so freaking much.
and just wanted to randomly say thank you for everything, and putting up with me. lol
until we meet again,
kathleeeeeen. xo.

feeling better about stuff.
if you were wondering =)
i wont go into detail but ya,
things seem to be looking better.
thanks for the prayers, clearly they worked.

and thats all i have to say for now i guess =P

much lovee.
kathleen.<3

blarg.
i just hate days like this.
or maybe its just not today..
i'm hoping its only today.
i hope this feeling isnt going to last for a while.
i just feel like almost complete shit.
ew.
i hate this too much.
i keep trying to tell myself things will work out, and that i'll be happy again.
but it just doesnt feel right.
trying to play happy music.
but then i jsut wanna smash the CD player.

maybe its just cuz i'm afraid of getting too comfortable.
or maybe i'm just making up excuses.
and don't tell me its PMS ( ahem .. victor lol)
maybe i really should just run away to where i want to be.
but where DO i want to be?
i like to think i know, but maybe i dont...
its probs more important to be where i NEED to be.
right?
and maybe where i think i need to be, isnt really where i need to be, its actaully where i want AND need to be.
i just dont know why i feel like this.

say a prayer for me.
i really need it.

kathleen.

allergies.
i hate them.
i never used to have allergies.
until i got this damn hamster.
even tho i love it so much.
He's so cute.
but makes me sick
ON TOP of my damn cold.
ARG.

so school has started.
so many new faces to meet.
and you know what makes me think?
i see so many faces in one day,
and then maybe one day i meet the person.
and the days before that, they were just a random kid.
and maybe now they're an aquaintance. and maybe in a month or more or less, they could be a really good friend of mine.
so first impressions are everything.
which is a totally overused line, but its pretty much true.
thats why i hate being sick when i meet people . (hint hint, i'm sick with a really bad cold the first week of school... so i'm sniffling every five seconds. and thats most likely a turn off. and my voice is nasal-y, cuz my nose is plugged dammnet.)

o well.

and i have to agree with you , Kathleen L.
I love my friends aswell.
If only they all went to the same school as me, and same classes. that would totally make my life.
cuz, most of the time, people classify me as outgoing. but to be honest with you, I'm usually only most outgoing when i'm with at least one person i know. and that really sux when you're in a new school if you know what i mean. cuz i can be rather outgoing once i am. if you know me, you know that.

maybe i should go to bed.
you see, thats the problem with me. im' SO dead tired and feel so crappy in the mornings. and at night, i just dont sleep. gah. sometimes i just hate myself.
but what can you do?
...you can be a smart aleck and say, "what you can do is go to bed." and i wont laugh. because. im too cool for that. but then i'd prolly laugh anyway.
and you know what i just noticed.
i'm making NO sense. I'm sorry for wasting your time.
and i'm sorry for wasting my own time.
but wait.
this may acutally not be a waste of time.
cuz then i can get my thoughts out before i go to bed, and then i can go right to sleep, without thinking.
but then i will always find something new to think of.
until i stick my head phones on, clik 'play' on my discman, and listen to a round of Iver. cuz they're the most relaxing band i've heard in my life. you must have a listen... www.myspace.com/ivermusic ..if only their CD contained more than just 4 amazing songs :( .

k.
i'm going to bed.
just after a few more minutes of chatting with tony.
cuz we have such fun conversations.

much love,
your confused, sick, joyful, thankful, stupid, depressed, hyper, random, lost, found, and more at random times these days friend,

kathleeeen.xo.♥

i was just visiting my hometown of Winnipeg.
i love those people so much.
They're pretty much family to me.
we had such a frikkin amazing time together.
every second was a blast//party.
didnt go to bed before 4 am once :P
cuz i'm cool like that.

and now that i've been back there again, i miss it 10 zillion times more.
if thats possible.

i love you guys.
sniff.

i'll be back soon enuf
you'll see.

kathleen.
p.s. enjoy the new blogskin. i love it =)