blarg.
i just hate days like this.
or maybe its just not today..
i'm hoping its only today.
i hope this feeling isnt going to last for a while.
i just feel like almost complete shit.
ew.
i hate this too much.
i keep trying to tell myself things will work out, and that i'll be happy again.
but it just doesnt feel right.
trying to play happy music.
but then i jsut wanna smash the CD player.

maybe its just cuz i'm afraid of getting too comfortable.
or maybe i'm just making up excuses.
and don't tell me its PMS ( ahem .. victor lol)
maybe i really should just run away to where i want to be.
but where DO i want to be?
i like to think i know, but maybe i dont...
its probs more important to be where i NEED to be.
right?
and maybe where i think i need to be, isnt really where i need to be, its actaully where i want AND need to be.
i just dont know why i feel like this.

say a prayer for me.
i really need it.

kathleen.