i cried until i threw up.
and i havent done that in two years.
and the reasons for this are basically the same.
just different levels.

but thats not important.
and no, the reason for my tears isnt bcuz of what happened in my last blog.
that would be just lame.
cuz he's a fool.
and i dont waste tears on fools.

ya.
holy writers block
i have nothing else to say.
or just dont know how to put my thoughts into words.
withtout freaking you all out.
and NO its not suicidal thots..
cuz that would deff freak you all out.

maybe i'll try this again later when i know what i want to say.

trust.

i love that verb.
i've always had it.
i dont think ever someone really took it away from me.
its just always been there. i had it with everyone.

except today.
someone violated it.
and i feel so stripped of everything.
how did that happen?
i dont even know.
i'm still waiting for the moment to catch up with me so i can recollect it all.

guys. i dont even know what to do.
please pray for me.

ya. you could call that fun.
victor came over friday night..
walked home in the wet snow/rain.
made memories by running through fire hydrant fountains.
ahahah.
damn that was cold =P
and the guardian was a really stellar movie i must say.

and monday. choir.
i still love it.
learning about binary from keith.
ya i deff still dont get it.
lol

had more intense religious discussions at school.
for some reason the same ppl keep bringin that subject up with me at school..
i raelly wish they were actaully intersted, and not just looking for an argument.

ya and pretty much this blogging is my way of procrastinating against hmwk, once AGAIN.
its what i do best.
i think.
and no, tony, you dont need to write a note to my teachers explaining that chatting with you is keeping me away from my hmwk. hahahaha
nice thought tho!

and first school play auditions were today. woot =) way to cram the song Footloose into my head. probs will be there for a week now. GREAAAT =P

i'm tired.
this is a really boring blog.
i'm sry.

slap me.
i'll probs be too busy sleeping to slap you back.

but OMG OMG
GOOD NEWSSSS
my parents are actaully agreeing to discuss letting me go to winnipeg during christmas holidays!! WOOT WOOT
i'm excited.

AND JULIA MIGHT BE VISITING IN NOVEMBER!!! =D

but bad news. slash good news. sorta.
i'm probs getting braces.
ew.
so dont count on that many smiles any more.
i'll try and hold back.
until the ugly metal has been taken off.
please refrain from calling me Braceface.
or i may break out into the theme song of that t.v. show
and trust me.
you dont want that.



k i promised my self i'd get some reading done tonight..
so here goes!!
after i call tony.
ahahahah

g'night!!
-kathleen.

Yay for blogging!
We've got two new bloggers on the scene!!

First, my dear friend Tony, at www.tonyresendes.blogspot.com
anddd darling Bekah at www.bekahmackinnon.blogspot.com

Welcome to the lovely world of blogs =) lol.
Love ya both
Love you all

kathleen


in other news..


i wish there was a pause button on this.
i could press it..
reorganize things, get everything back in order..
take as long as i need to.
have long chats at Tim Hortons with whoever needs it, or whoever i need to..
tie up lose ends on everything..
and then when i'm ready, i'll press play again.

why do i wish for things.
it only makes it worse..

gosh i sound emo.
SHUT UP!

kathleen.

so my funny//annoying//random event of the week...

i'm in h&m shopping with elise, and thers two change rooms beside eachother we decide to go in.
the changeroom i go in has a few clothes in it , and one of those numbers on the door... but i go in anyway, cuz thres no one really around, and .. ppl dont normally leave their changrooms like that when thers a mirror right there. and i asked a lady standing nearby if tehrs anyone in there, and shes like " i dont think so , i havent seen anyone for a while. so ANYway.
i go in and start changing, and then some lady starts opening the door
"sry, i'm in here!"
" but my stuff is in there!"
" okay, sry i didnt know, just let me put my shirt back on, and you can have ur room back "
...closes doorr...
a few seconds later..
she starts BANGING away at the door, and yelling MY STUFF IS IN THERE.
and starts pushing at the door.
and im like SRY!! just let me put my shirt back on!!!
and then she whams open the door and comes in, and i'm just like
uhmmmmmmmmmm. can i put my clothes back on please???
and shes like well i'm in a hurry..
she's this little old lady, and i'm thinking why are you shopping in H&M in the first place??
so THEN
SHE STARTS STRIPPING DOWN and putting her clothes on!!!
and i'm like " can you please wait till i oput my shirt on? i dont even know you and i dont feel comfortable with us both changing in here!!
and she says " im in a hrry"
and so we're both in there , in this crammed little room, half naked.
so i quickly get my stuff on, and leave.
ack.
totally awkward and stupid and BARF

so i hope you had a good laugh about that.
cuz i did.. not at the moment tho =P but NOW i can laugh about it.
ahahah.
have a nice day.
kathleen

so i was praying with my Bible the other night..
and He came to me with this..

At dawn let me hear of your kindness,
for in you I trust.
Show me the path I should walk,
for to you I entrust my life.
Rescue me, Lord, from my foes,
for in you I hope.
Teach me to do your will,
for you are my God.
May your kind spirit guide me
on ground that is level.
For your name's sake,
Lord give me life!
in your justice lead me out of distress.
In your kindness put an end to my foes;
destroy all who attack me,
for I am your servant.
Psalm 143:8-12

Yeah. God is awesome.
But i bet you already knew that.

have a lovely day. He made mine =)

Kathleen

i hate how busy i am lately.
i hate it so much.
i loved being able to talk to my friends so much, so often.
homework and work should be illegal if it takes needed time of yours away from being there for your friends.
geeez.
i'm sryy guys =(
call me tonight.
i should be here.
and we can catch up
esp you keith. cuz i know we need to have an extra talk. so call me.
hm.
i should take work off on the weekend.
and have a party.
yes.
thats what i need.
arg..
i just got bad news.
i was planning on going to dear Winnipeg for March Break.
but i just realized that we have different March Breaks.
shizzz. =S that really wrecks my day.
alot alot alot.
i gotta find some way around that. *sigh*
anyway.
i'll talk to you later.
when you call me.
=)
love you so much.
kathleen.xo.