" if everything could only feel this good forever "

i hate those days.

you think everyhting is going fine, you feel good, you're smiling, having a good time, you're self confident.

and then it hits you that alot of things are going wrong.
and you wanan do something about it but, its so hard , and you pretty much can't.

i hate those days.

" the only thing i'll ever ask of you ; you gotta promise not to stop when i say when "

i'm trying to write a song, but words arent coming
what the hell would i write about anways.
i have a sweet melody line, and intro and all this.
the words just arent coming.

ew.

i hate that.

i'm running on empty. i've been going non-stop ever since.. well. a while ago
work, schoool, footloose practice, random other practices, making dinner, calling//msning//emailing, babysitting , bed ( if any ), x 7

i think i'm slowly killing myself.

i've realized recently that there arent enough hours in a day to do everything. not even to think about everything.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaah man alive.

" my soul is screaming out to be found in you "

i need a good youth worship night.
that would be awesome.

sighhhhhhhhhh.

i can't stand it when friends do stupid things. i wish you could just show them how what they're doing is gonna affect them so much in the future, and then they'd stop.

i also wish you could show someone the future and show them how things they're doing now are going to be okayyy in the future.

i wish too much.

... get my head back into reality here..

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i'll be okay.
just give me a few weeks.


ohhh by the way.
COME AND SEE FOOTLOOSEEEE its gonna be an awesome show , i promise. my brother and his girlfriend are the leads, and i'm his girlsfirneds mother, with my cousin as my husband. haha. its gonna be good. April 18-21st. lemme know what night you wnan go so i can get you tickests !!!!

love you
kathleen.