life is really kicking me in the face these days.
and then extra knives are being thrown into my chest on top of that.

when sometime betrays you, denies you, keeps things from you when you know the truth, or hates on something you put your heart and soul into, it really hurts.
really, really hurts.

if only they would just listen.
open up their mind,
i'm trying show them my reasoning,
but they totally disreguard it.

and they dissapoint you, shock you, and keep it from you.
i know the truth. even if they deny it. i know the truth,
even thought they think i don't.
what happened to the real you. the true you.

i know what's deep down there,
i see it when i look into your eyes.
you're searching for something so much greater, and cant figure out where to look.
you see that glimmer of a jewel, but you're afraid to touch it and pick it up
for fear of seeing your reflection.

i love you.
no ones accusing you.
just breathe. come close to me , let our hearts beat as one.
we can get through this together.


God give me strength.